todays installment

so, i'm managing to update this a little more frequently than previous. Things this week seem to be looking up. Feel a bit brighter.
Very much to do with the fact my parents made a suprise visit this week and landed just as i was feeling my worst and was ill.

mammy hugs make u feel much much better thats all i can say. Been really nice just having them around. we havnt done too much, mostly because am still very unsteady on my feet. But even just having them hanging around at my house, pottering around watching tv, reading, etc is sooo good. was nice to just out for a coffee & showed them the bridge. To be honest i dont care what we do its just nice to have them here. especially since its my dad's birthday next week and mine in 2.

xx

lyrics

You've applied the pressure
To have me crystalised
And you've got the faith
That I could bring paradise

I'll forgive and forget
Before I'm paralyzed
Do I have to keep up the pace
To keep you satisfied

Things have gotten closer to the sun
And I've done things in small doses
So don't think that I'm pushing you away
When you're the one that I've kept closest

Ahh, ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh, ahh

You don't move slow
Taking steps in my directions
The sound resounds, echo
Does it lessen your affection
No

You say I'm foolish
For pushing this aside
But burn down our home
I won't leave alive

Glaciers have melted to the sea
I wish the tide would take me over
I've been down on my knees
And you just keep on getting closer

Ahh, ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh, ahh

Placid as I melt into the sea
(Things have gotten closer to the sun)
I wish the tide would take me over
(And I've done things in small doses)
I've been down onto my knees
(So don't think that I'm pushing you away)
And you just keep on getting closer
(When you're the one that I've kept closest)

Go slow
Go slow
Go slow
Go slow
Go slow

so its been a while..

just realise its been 8months since i last did this.
so out of a routine, its been a bit of a roller coaster of a "year". Had some high and some lows.
I just feel the need to write again. . . .

its hard writing how u feel, i remember saying in my first ever post i didnt know how i felt about the world knowing my thoughts and feeling on daily stuff. I think the idea seemed liberating then... i dont know so much now. i feel more exposed.

Yet at the same time i feel like this is where i can really say what i think or feel. even though it is exposing and does make me feel vulnerable.

but do i have anything to say?

i dont know